Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Jelousy and Envy comin from my enemies...

So yesterday I slacked off.
I woke up, played a game of DotA, ate breakfast, took a shower, then crapped my pants. When I was about to head out the door to pick up some ferret food and litter, I realized that I didn't have my wallet. Now this wouldn't normally be a problem, I lose my shit all the time (well, maybe it is a problem...) but I usually find it fairly quickly. But the last time I had remembered seeing it was when I was at the gym, in the back of a locker... So I hurry my gf up and we buy some ferret stuff, food, litter, octopus thing, and we head home. On the way back I remember that we needed milk so we stopped for groceries, w/e. We head home, drop shit off and head back to the gym, the pit of my stomach dropping ever deeper as we get closer. So I park and head inside, lo and behold, someone turned it in. Quite relived, I decided to skip my classes today and have fun with Allie. That pretty much summed up the events but I had an interesting conversation with Allie today. One I feel needs some thought, now and perhaps at a later time revisited.

Some back story:
Allie began college as a Bio Major. After about one year she decides "I hate this shit, I'll major in some that I ACTUALLY LIKE DOING!!!" And I love her for it. I respect her for it. She went to her parents and said more or less that she was changing her major to Graphic Design and that she would be happy once she did. The reaction was... less then one I would have given.
Point one: Allie is a Graphic Design major and she loves it.
On to more back story:
Allie has a childhood "friend." Now when I say friend, I imagine that her is some one that shares her points of view, that levels her out, that looks out for her, and is a good influence. After all, who keeps a friend around that makes you feel like shit? The end result, I meet some like her. Of all the people in Allies life, there are maybe two that I feel are a positive influence. One, her cousin Nick. The bastard cousin who is actually studying hard, making something out of him self. He shares a few of my same interests, as well as a birthdate.
Side Point: Cousin is cool.
The other person I feel that is a positive influence in her life is her mother. To make a long story short,-
Side Point: Moms be a bitch, but she knows how to cook. And she actually supports her daughter (unlike her wowaddict father).

Now, side points are nice, but let us go back to the story of Allie and her negatively influential "friend." Allie started hanging out with her in grade school, they were both the transfer kids. They hung out for a year then her "friend" wanted in with the "cool crowd," so she dumped Allie for like a year and spent that time being the cool crowds bitch, all the while thinking that they accepted her. After a while she got tired of that shit and started hanging out with Allie again. Allie didn't mind, saint that she is, and they started hanging out again. Eventually they formed a posse (possie?) / crew with two other girls; one who got kidnapped by her father who fled with her to Guam, the other....I think she smokes crack now, w/e... But in that time, oh soo long ago, there became a sort of reoccurring trend. Allie would get new clothes, art supplies, etc. and she would be happy. Allie comes from a low income family, but I don't hold it against her (... most of the time). Very soon after (like a couple of days) her "friend," who comes from more affluent means, would buy something along the same lines that Allie got, only better. Now, normally this kind of behavior is ok, but not if it happens almost every time. This shit bugs Allie to this day.
Fast forward to today. Allie who has had an interest in GD for some time now, and her friend, who has so far been involved in Photography. Her friend decided that she wanted to switch to a GD major. Now its like... OMGWRFBBQ with Allie QQ-ing all the time.

Normally...normally...I would say that the behavior of her friend is unacceptable. But this isn't a pair of jeans or a new set of crayons. This is someone's life. Allie is all "WTF, that is MY major, GD is MY thing..." but I feel that her friend should be able to study whatever the hell she wants. Whats to stop her from doing something that makes her happy. Isn't Allie doing the same thing? I don't know, but it seems to me that Allie is in the wrong in this situation. I think that she should be happy that she can share in something so important to her. But Allie sees it differently. In the end she's just getting upset because she doesn't want her friend to out shine her, which I find strange because every time we are on the subject, Allie goes on about how GD is more than fancy shit on Photoshop. Guess that's it for now. Next time I'll write about how my friends are giant vaginas and how I was a therapist in my past life. Later.

2 comments:

Harvey Chen said...

First off I would just like to note that apparently giant "vaginas" are somehow able to formulate a coherent thought manage to express it with proper grammar :P. Not that I'm JEALOUS or anything, but I was reading your blog, then Allie's blog, then *Shudder* Loretta's blog; and I was thinking I should maybe be linked to these blogs as well. Because you know, I'm insecure and I need that affirmation of linked blogs in my life, otherwise I'd just kill myself. Cheers.

Harvey Chen said...

So I found out how to link pages, go to customize, add gadget, links, then name whatever you want it to be, and add links in there as well. cheers.