1. Graduate from College
2. Get a job (that makes more than 40k)
3. Fix car
4. Cosplay at a con
5. Read one book every week
6. Weigh 160 lbs (210 now)
7. Call my family once a week
8. Make the bed every day
9. Pay off my credit card
Print this out!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Monday, October 26, 2009
Bleh
I had a meeting with that professor I had a problem with. Just as I thought, things got better when I got a chance to know him. I really feel like I know the direction that the class is going in now, I just have to do the readings... Too bad I'm not a big reader, But I'm going to seriously make an effort. Now for one of my favorites: a list of things I need to do!
1. Aristotle paper
2.Other paper I have to do for my ethics class...
3. Boethius paper
4. Final paper for Philosophy class
OK!
Now things that I will actually* do!
(*try to)
1. Read ch1-6 in Capitalism at the X-roads
2 Read Working ethics in its entirety
3. Start working on papers!!
4. Start learning how to draw
Alright! Nothing to it but to do it, right?
1. Aristotle paper
2.Other paper I have to do for my ethics class...
3. Boethius paper
4. Final paper for Philosophy class
OK!
Now things that I will actually* do!
(*try to)
1. Read ch1-6 in Capitalism at the X-roads
2 Read Working ethics in its entirety
3. Start working on papers!!
4. Start learning how to draw
Alright! Nothing to it but to do it, right?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
The corporation
Just saw The Corporation...
I think corporation is a pretty cool guy, eh' steals from the earth and doesn't afraid of anything.
This sustainable business class is actually pretty awesome. My only problem is with the teacher, his teaching sucks! Now, to be fair, I don't think that he sucks personally. Maybe with a smaller class size, or shorter class time, he would be great. But as it is, he's horrible at organizing activities and discussions. *Sigh* I'm off now to do some reading, and update my project.
I think corporation is a pretty cool guy, eh' steals from the earth and doesn't afraid of anything.
This sustainable business class is actually pretty awesome. My only problem is with the teacher, his teaching sucks! Now, to be fair, I don't think that he sucks personally. Maybe with a smaller class size, or shorter class time, he would be great. But as it is, he's horrible at organizing activities and discussions. *Sigh* I'm off now to do some reading, and update my project.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Obligation
The only reason I'm posting is because I feel like I have to.
Update:
I'm currently sick
I have 2 papers due in 3 days (which isn't that bad)
I'm trying to be more social
I still feel as if my family boggs me down, but I think they only do it because they feel I have nothing better to do.
end
Friday, September 4, 2009
Ideas
What do I do with my time?
I play video games
What Would I rather do?
homework
play the piano
watch anime
make a comic
ok.
now lets plan this out. why? because plans allow you to record your progress while comparing it to the relatively small goals that you set for yourself. Now:
Homework:
-Get out of house. Why? Because when I'm at home all I do is play video games.
-Bring materials to read.
-Bring laptop to turn in assignments.
-???
-Profit
Play the Piano (its actually a keyboard):
-Plug that bitch in
-Put it on the table
-Open sheet music
-???
-Profit
Watch anime:
-Turn on computer
-???
-Profit
Make a comic:
-write down ideas
-l2draw
-???
-Profit
So it really is that easy!
Now all I have to do is make sure I leave the house whenever I have anything important to do, plug that bitch in, turn on my computer, and l2draw!
Wow. I guess life really is that simple.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
"If there is a wall in our way, we'll destroy it. If there is no road, we'll pave one with our own hands."
Update:
I received my first "A" at USF. To fully express my emotions at the time I will simply say that I liken it to the scene in Spanglish where Adam Sandler gets the good restaurant review. Fair to say I was excited, as was my mother, but something that I had dreaded had finally come true; I set the bar higher. Something that I have prolonged for so long, getting the good grade showed that I wasn't the average student. I am beginning to show up on the radar. Is it so wrong to crave tranquillity? To want obscurity? I look at the image of the prominent business elite, the socialite, the smooth talker, "the walk" walker.
All that attention isn't something that I want, it never has been, but things can't be about what I want anymore, now they have to be about what I need. To choose that kind of future, or any other; in the end I have a number of paths before me, same as the next man, but I fear that my indecisiveness will be the end of me. The bad end. So in an attempt to organize my thoughts I will try to lay them out here, for the world to see. As much as I want to be hidden, I can't let myself simply disappear. I've made my presence known now, and I have to adjust accordingly.
Finish school
I need to finish my B.A., end of story. I also need to do well in all my courses to make sure that people don't see that "A" as just a fluke. People will see my potential, and how far I have been willing to take it. This is my Priority One.
Get a Job
Holy crap. Seriously planning to skip meals just to fill up my gas tank, pay my rent, or other utilities... As much as I would like to wait for an internship, my father cannot continue to support me. I need to start making money on my own. Plus I've begun to put a strain on my girlfriend with all the money issues. The only problem is that a job may interfere with my education, having less time for school work and projects would put a strain on my grades.
You know, I seriously thought that there would be more. To be honest, things are a bit more complicated than that, but maybe they don't have to be. I just need a job that will pay the bills... I just have to focus on studying and working... but at what cost? Do I have to give up my friends and family? Studying all week, working weekends, this type of schedule is stressful for me because I care very much about my friends and family.
Would doing so would mean that I would be neglecting them. In my list of priorities I would have them at the top, but is that just idealistic thinking? Casting aside those that care for me, raised me, supported me, for my own selfish ambition; isn't that like selling out? Or is there a socially acceptable amount that I can get away with (if I should settle for society's standards instead of my own)?
How would they feel if I told them I had to put them on the back burner, missing birthdays and holidays? These are the people who taught me the meaning of virtues and sacrifice, to honor and respect them. Would I be openly spitting in their faces? Would they understand the pain in my heart that I feel as I put this down? How can I when they continue to support me to this day emotionally and financially?
I guess it isn't so simple. With so many questions, perhaps I should just ask them. In philosophy class we learned that we shouldn't fear the future, because the future is unknown we don't know whether it will be good for us or bad.
Perhaps I will bring these things to their attention. My grandmother is out of town, my father... to be honest I wonder what kind of advise he would give. As I understand, things aren't going so well for him either. I would like to speak to my uncle again, the last time I had a good talk with him, I was considering becoming part of the clergy after I had finished school.
Before all of those, I will start with those closest to me, in a more physical distance sense. My girlfriend, then brother, mother, grandmother-B, friends, father, uncles, then grandmother-D. Maybe I should print this out for notes...
For the sake of posterity, I simply cannot end a post in such a way, so I will end with one of my favorite quotes: "If there is a wall in our way, we'll destroy it! If there is no road, we'll pave one with our own hands."
So kids, lets set out there and make it happen!
I received my first "A" at USF. To fully express my emotions at the time I will simply say that I liken it to the scene in Spanglish where Adam Sandler gets the good restaurant review. Fair to say I was excited, as was my mother, but something that I had dreaded had finally come true; I set the bar higher. Something that I have prolonged for so long, getting the good grade showed that I wasn't the average student. I am beginning to show up on the radar. Is it so wrong to crave tranquillity? To want obscurity? I look at the image of the prominent business elite, the socialite, the smooth talker, "the walk" walker.
All that attention isn't something that I want, it never has been, but things can't be about what I want anymore, now they have to be about what I need. To choose that kind of future, or any other; in the end I have a number of paths before me, same as the next man, but I fear that my indecisiveness will be the end of me. The bad end. So in an attempt to organize my thoughts I will try to lay them out here, for the world to see. As much as I want to be hidden, I can't let myself simply disappear. I've made my presence known now, and I have to adjust accordingly.
Finish school
I need to finish my B.A., end of story. I also need to do well in all my courses to make sure that people don't see that "A" as just a fluke. People will see my potential, and how far I have been willing to take it. This is my Priority One.
Get a Job
Holy crap. Seriously planning to skip meals just to fill up my gas tank, pay my rent, or other utilities... As much as I would like to wait for an internship, my father cannot continue to support me. I need to start making money on my own. Plus I've begun to put a strain on my girlfriend with all the money issues. The only problem is that a job may interfere with my education, having less time for school work and projects would put a strain on my grades.
You know, I seriously thought that there would be more. To be honest, things are a bit more complicated than that, but maybe they don't have to be. I just need a job that will pay the bills... I just have to focus on studying and working... but at what cost? Do I have to give up my friends and family? Studying all week, working weekends, this type of schedule is stressful for me because I care very much about my friends and family.
Would doing so would mean that I would be neglecting them. In my list of priorities I would have them at the top, but is that just idealistic thinking? Casting aside those that care for me, raised me, supported me, for my own selfish ambition; isn't that like selling out? Or is there a socially acceptable amount that I can get away with (if I should settle for society's standards instead of my own)?
How would they feel if I told them I had to put them on the back burner, missing birthdays and holidays? These are the people who taught me the meaning of virtues and sacrifice, to honor and respect them. Would I be openly spitting in their faces? Would they understand the pain in my heart that I feel as I put this down? How can I when they continue to support me to this day emotionally and financially?
I guess it isn't so simple. With so many questions, perhaps I should just ask them. In philosophy class we learned that we shouldn't fear the future, because the future is unknown we don't know whether it will be good for us or bad.
Perhaps I will bring these things to their attention. My grandmother is out of town, my father... to be honest I wonder what kind of advise he would give. As I understand, things aren't going so well for him either. I would like to speak to my uncle again, the last time I had a good talk with him, I was considering becoming part of the clergy after I had finished school.
Before all of those, I will start with those closest to me, in a more physical distance sense. My girlfriend, then brother, mother, grandmother-B, friends, father, uncles, then grandmother-D. Maybe I should print this out for notes...
For the sake of posterity, I simply cannot end a post in such a way, so I will end with one of my favorite quotes: "If there is a wall in our way, we'll destroy it! If there is no road, we'll pave one with our own hands."
So kids, lets set out there and make it happen!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Day 140,276
Don't know about tomorrows list. Off the top of my head is:
1. Log how many hours a day I have spent online, starting from last week
2. Read SOMETHING of the papers I have due
3. Plan for Vegas
4. Install Radio for car
5. Schedule maintanance for my car before Vegas Trip
No summary, just what I've been thinking:
I have thought about alot over the past couple of weeks. If I have an internet addiction, how to control said addiction, moving onto a different brand of cigarette (Benson and Hedges), what I am going to do with my life in general, what I am going to do with my life in the 12 months after collage, do I want a family (yes), could I actually make it as a stay at home dad (I really fucking hope so!), but the main thing on my mind is reguarding a dream I had.
In the dream, I am in a "white zone." I'm not surrounded by light, it's not bright, just...white, everywhere. In the middle of me just chilling there I hear a voice. Now, I don't recall exactly what "It" said, only that "It" attracted my attention very much the same way a child does it's father. It was more like a "hey, look over here," than anything else. When I had turned around, there was nothing there... only more white-ness. The strangest part of it all was that I "recognised" or "associated" the voice to be that of Jesus Christ.
Now I have never been visited by any angel, demon, space monkey, UFO, or anything else. I am a catholic, named after two saints, and consider myself to be veryspiritual, though not very religious. I have told a select few about the dream and they thought nothing of it. After some time I will attempt to dissern whatever my mind can muster out of the dream.
The voice, was Jesus. End of that one.
The White-ness, I think, are my "works." In the Catholic religion, (to my understanding) people are exemplified in two ways, by their faith and their works. It is said that faith is what gets us closer to heaven, and our works that bring heaven closer to our world. Because I consider myself to be pretty spiritual, I can knock out the faith part. It would makemore sense that, due to my lazy nature, the white-ness are my works (or lack there of).
I think that the dream was Jesus, caling attention to my lack of works... So what?
So now what?
What's next?
What needs to be done?
I don't really have an answer to that, but since this dream occured (btw, was several months ago) is has constantly been at the front of my mind. I don't really know how to go about doing good works. In my priority list, work is far from the top:
1. Family
2. Allie
3. Erin
4. Friends
...
(Long way down)
...
#. work
For the time being, I have decided to give the seminary a try (you know, after I get my degree in international business, with a minor in japanese...). My thinking is, because I have no direction on how do to good works in my life, I will devote my life (or at least a part of it) to doing pretty much nothing but good works.
Only time can tell. In the near future, I canonly hope I stay commited enough to finish school, keep on living somewhere besides my parents' houses, keep my ferret alive, and keep my girlfriend in love with me. Piece of cake, right?
1. Log how many hours a day I have spent online, starting from last week
2. Read SOMETHING of the papers I have due
3. Plan for Vegas
4. Install Radio for car
5. Schedule maintanance for my car before Vegas Trip
No summary, just what I've been thinking:
I have thought about alot over the past couple of weeks. If I have an internet addiction, how to control said addiction, moving onto a different brand of cigarette (Benson and Hedges), what I am going to do with my life in general, what I am going to do with my life in the 12 months after collage, do I want a family (yes), could I actually make it as a stay at home dad (I really fucking hope so!), but the main thing on my mind is reguarding a dream I had.
In the dream, I am in a "white zone." I'm not surrounded by light, it's not bright, just...white, everywhere. In the middle of me just chilling there I hear a voice. Now, I don't recall exactly what "It" said, only that "It" attracted my attention very much the same way a child does it's father. It was more like a "hey, look over here," than anything else. When I had turned around, there was nothing there... only more white-ness. The strangest part of it all was that I "recognised" or "associated" the voice to be that of Jesus Christ.
Now I have never been visited by any angel, demon, space monkey, UFO, or anything else. I am a catholic, named after two saints, and consider myself to be veryspiritual, though not very religious. I have told a select few about the dream and they thought nothing of it. After some time I will attempt to dissern whatever my mind can muster out of the dream.
The voice, was Jesus. End of that one.
The White-ness, I think, are my "works." In the Catholic religion, (to my understanding) people are exemplified in two ways, by their faith and their works. It is said that faith is what gets us closer to heaven, and our works that bring heaven closer to our world. Because I consider myself to be pretty spiritual, I can knock out the faith part. It would makemore sense that, due to my lazy nature, the white-ness are my works (or lack there of).
I think that the dream was Jesus, caling attention to my lack of works... So what?
So now what?
What's next?
What needs to be done?
I don't really have an answer to that, but since this dream occured (btw, was several months ago) is has constantly been at the front of my mind. I don't really know how to go about doing good works. In my priority list, work is far from the top:
1. Family
2. Allie
3. Erin
4. Friends
...
(Long way down)
...
#. work
For the time being, I have decided to give the seminary a try (you know, after I get my degree in international business, with a minor in japanese...). My thinking is, because I have no direction on how do to good works in my life, I will devote my life (or at least a part of it) to doing pretty much nothing but good works.
Only time can tell. In the near future, I canonly hope I stay commited enough to finish school, keep on living somewhere besides my parents' houses, keep my ferret alive, and keep my girlfriend in love with me. Piece of cake, right?
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